Can't win for loosing!

It was recently brought to my attention that I never mentioned that I was married! Apparently I am a trying to hide from the world that I am in fact married. Well the "truth" is I have been married for almost 4 years as of November 2009. Recently I have been tremendously stressed out and over the past year I have really learned what it's like to truly make mistakes and pay for them. Truth is I'm not a bad guy. Even though there are people around me that would like the world to believe so. So whoever has a problem with me I say thank you. Thank you for being a spur in my side, thank you for letting me know every time I make a mistake, thank you for continuing to remind me that I will never measure up to you. Again Shawn DeeWayne Stephens is married and this blog isn't about "hooking" up. It was merely meant to be a bird's eye view in my world. But obviously even with something as benign about this personal blog; I CAN'T WIN FOR LOOSING!!!! I am signing off from this blog for good.....see you on the other side of happiness. If you're already there please leave the light on.

Daddy Daycare: Day 4 Recap

Yesterday was pretty eventful being that we took Zoe to her 2 month check up, where she received 2 shots in both legs. As a parent have you ever stopped to wonder why our children get so many vaccines? I know I cannot remember being 2 or 3 or 4 for that matter but do ya'll think that we use to get that many shots? Just a thought...

Daddy Daycare: Day 3 Recap

Pretty quiet day today. Zoe was really lazy today so she stay awake for too long today. She still is soo cuddly though...

Daddy Daycare: Day 2 Recap

Well today was pretty cool. Zoe was good for me and allowed me to get quite a bit of work done. The funniest thing that happened today was when she thurped all over the place. After I changed her and finished feeding her she was as happy as a pig in fresh slop...haha

Daddy Daycare: Day 1 Recap

Yesterday I started my 2 week journey of working from home and caring for Zoe. Needless to say I was kind of nervous. Not really sure why but I was. Zoe was very good for me and let me get quite a bit of work done. I think these next 2 weeks are good for me because it will give me time to bond with Zoe. I must admit I envy women and how our society makes accomidations for them to be able to stay at home with pay. I really think that the laws should change to allow every father at least 2 weeks off for maternity leave. I mean we live in a world where there is a shortage of active fathers and I think that allowing that person paid time off to bond with their kid(s) would change some men's mind. Maybe, maybe not...

Word of the day? Schedule
Fathers women are pretty darn good at this and I think that is the secret to great parenting....

I am legend...My 2 Cents

You know I was sitting back last Saturday looking at my 2 cents to the world (Amaya and Zoe). And I couldnt help but be amazed that God has blessed me with the responsibility of helping to raise 2 women in today's society. Often times the wives tale is that the more of a lady's man you were coming up the higher your chances are at having a little girl. I must admit that tale does hold true in some instances; but not all. See I look at my glass as being 1/2 full and not 1/2 empty. I believe that God trusts that I will make the right decisions and lead my 2 little ladies into womanhood and greatness (with Melissa's and his help of course). I am in ahww of how different their personalities are and how a little bit of me is instilled within the 2 of them. How one day they will have little ones that will learn the same lessons that I have yet to teach them. How men will fall in and out of love with them and how that will make me feel. How 1 day (God willing) I will walk each one of them down the isle to cross over into this life of marriage. I know that I have a tremendous amount to learn and to teach. I pray everyday that I make the most sensible decision when it comes to their well being. I pray that I am patient with them when they dont know what they want to do with their lives. I pray that when they look into my eyes that they are comforted and know that they always have a place to call home. My legend is not my accomplishments. My legend is the brand of life that I bestow on the 2 little ladies that God has tasked me to raise, give to him, and them to give to the world. Deep huh... If you have kids sit back 1 day and think about the task that is at hand. Think about how you were chosen by God to help raise that little one. Think about the trust that God has in you to be the best for them. That's my 2 cents...and I love them with all of my heart...
On to some pics...

Recently my best friend Delone Landrum cross the burning sands of being single and entered into marriage with the love of his life (Rachael)...congrats bruh and blessings...




Me and him at his bachelor party...no strip clubs!! We are some stand up guys...

Zoe and I chilling at home...

Who am I?

Good morning, good afternoon, and good night. My name is Shawn Stephens. In short that is all alot of people know about me, however there are many different levels that make-up exactly who I am. Let's get the vitals out of the way:

• Born 06/02/1977 6-something in the am
• Wichita KS (Wesley Medical Center)
• Baby of 3 to Freddie Lee Stephens and Denice Hendrix
• Currently living in the biggest country/state of Texas
• Diploma earned May 1995 from the best basketball school in Kansas (Wichita South)
• Degree eaned May 2001 from Kansas State University
• 2 Beautiful Baby girls (I know life is going to be interesting..haha)

So now that is out of the way let's catch you up on where my life is right now. On March 23rd the Lord blessed us with another baby girl who I decided to name Zoe Ava. We already have 1 baby girl who is 17 months going on 2 1/2 named Amaya Lynn. Happiness is definitely in the air along with the excitement of what God has in store for me. This past year has probably been the most exilirating, rewarding, interesting, stressful, uncertain time of my life. Some days are better than others but with God all around me I know that nothing go falter.

Professionally I continue to better myself and be an asset to my company (Republic National). My current title is Microstrategy Support Analyst. Recently got word that we got another new boss; inside joke..haha. Anyways I consider myself to have work ADD, meaning that I have to constantly have more than 1 project on my plate to feel useful (definitely trying to cure myself of that).

Spiritually I am not where I want to be. I grew up in a devout Penecostal family that went to church almost everytime the doors were open. My mother is a steadfast praying woman who I know has sent some prayers up (on behalf of me) and I have reaped the blessings (thanks mom). I pray and ask God for guidance everyday in these trying times. For those who read this section and are religious please continue to pray for me.

Personally I continue to heal and recieve more clarity on what my role in life is. Currently I am post stressed out and staying calm to see the forrest above the trees. This past year I have endured many changes in my life that has taught me when, where, and how to give my love.

Overall life is good. 2 weeks, 2 days, 1 year ago I might not have said that. In all I believe that goes shows us situations, who people are, and gives us options for a reason. We all have the choice. My choice is to live, love, and move out of the way when I cant do both....Stay tuned..