Too busy being angry....

I recently I went and seen "Why did I get married too" and was floored with the overwhelming message that I received. We spend most of our adult live too busy being angry with one another. Being angry doesn't just include yelling it includes being spiteful, saying things to people to hurt them, and ignoring people. I am no stranger to all of these and I must admit that I have wasted a tremendous amount of my life being angry about anything and everything. Whether it be my personal situation, what people do to me, how I give and don't get, etc. Honestly all anger is neither here nor there in the bigger picture of life. There are way too many things to be happy about. So as much as I can I will dwindle my posts that are negative or not upbeat. I implore all my readers to assist me with this!
If you are reading this post and getting angry you need to check yourself. Stop spending so much time being angry and denying being angry. Smile :)

Rebirth, Resurrection, Renewal...

Easter is a time to reflect on the life, death, and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is a time for family, friends, fellowship, and love. For some it's the only time that they enter into the house of God to give thanks. Easter is an amazing time! This past Easter my family visited me all the way from Kansas. My mom, niece Jhamaica, niece Yanni, and best friend Tony. We had a wonderful weekend laughing and talking and sightseeing in Dallas. I particularly loved the fact that my 2 little ones (who only get to see their grandmother 2 or 3 times a year) got to spend at least 1 day with her. At 1st both girls were in "stranger danger" mode but by Sunday they warmed up to her and that made my heart warm. It's sad that my little ones don't get to spend more time with family but such are the woes of a great mother who gave her children "roots" and "wings"; thank you mom for that.
I really wished that my Easter was filled with nothing but joy but sadly it wasn't. There continues to be this struggle that I must deal with that tests my will to stay calm. I haven't figured out why some people's only intent in life is to disrupt my life and make every little transaction a struggle? Even on the day that the Lord arose and ascended into Heaven there are people in my life (let's be honest not people 1 person) that continues to fight with me. Continues to down talk me. Continues to make me go above and beyond just to prove that they can "make" me do something.
I have battled with this question lately. "Will God continue to bless a person even when they are not doing God's will? I use the term "God's will" very loosely because that can be anything from preaching his word to just simply being nice to someone. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not in the business of struggling with the "antagonist" in my life. That I am not trying to be in her business. That I am not trying to make that person's life a living hell. I am simply trying to live the best life I can live for my daughters.
Why is it that this person wont let me do the same? Some might say don't worry about it, "dust your shoulders off". This struggle continues to chip away at the goodness in me. It makes me want to follow the "eye for an eye" creed. It takes me off focus. It angers me! But even with that said I continue to appease. I continue to go past my boundary so this person wins. When will winning be enough? When will that person move on and follow God's plan; not their own?
I am not perfect. I have stated that in many of my posts. But one thing I know. People can hurt others with their words. I have left this struggle on the alter and I pray that God takes up my arms and fights this for me. For I can no longer fight or struggle with a person that has one intent when it comes to me. To make my life unsettled.....
Some have commented that my posts are dark or depressing. I am very happy and I love my life. But honesty isn't always pretty.
So now that Easter has passed take this time to reflect, resurrect, and renew. Let the people in your life go that have one malice intention. Reflect on all the glory that God has afforded you. Resurrect friendships and relationships with people who are worth the while. And renew your love in God, family, and friends who invest in you....

Hmmmm...

Today my patience and temperament are being tested. "Pick your battles Shawn and know that some things just aren't worth thinking about".... those words are playing in my head....