Let's cruise....

So 2 weeks ago I bought a new motorcycle. This has been a dream of mine for over 10 years. It seems like every woman that I was ever involved with was adamantly against it so naturally I had to finally do something for me. Its funny how when you do things for you some people always have something to say about it. That's neither her nor there though in the grand scheme of things. I can only make me happy and I am so over trying to make everyone else happy.
So anyways back to my new toy! I got a 2008 Honda VTX 1800N. The "N" stands for Neo-Retro. It basically means that they are taking the styling from the old school cruisers and adding some new school technology. Its like a deep orange-red color and boasts 1795 cc's. It can definitely burn all of the HD's (Harley-Davidson) in its class. Its a big boy; which is what I wanted because those that know me know that I love to be spoiled and I get bored with new toys very easily (guess its the Gemini in me...haha).
Anyways I took the BRC (basic rider class) 3 weeks ago and I must say that if you have NEVER rode a bike you will feel right at home and by the end of the class (if you take it seriously and pay attention) you will know how to ride and maneuver a motorcycle.
Riding my bike is such a free feeling. Some days (when I dont have my babies) I hop on my bike and just ride my stresses away. I ride alone because none of my friends have bikes but I think I might like it like that. All you hear is the roar of the bike and God whistling in your ear.
Well on to some pics... oh and I wear my helmet ALL THE TIME!!

Thank you

I want to take this time to thank all who have supported me. Through the ups and downs you have stood beside me, stood in front of me, shielded me, counseled me, humored me, consoled me, and loved me. Its not often that someone has people around them that see their worth even when they don't see it. I am not depressed in the least, just want to say thank you.
I was recently told that I was wrong for saying that at times I am lonely. That at times I feel that its me against the world. Well if being human is my deficiency then I guess ill be human. The past 3 years have taught me alot about perseverance and strength in people. You cannot depend on others to be strong for you. You cant depend on someone to make things right for you. Sometimes you have to stand on the feet that God gave you and weather the storm. God places obstacles in our life to test whether or not we really want to achieve the goal at hand. Sometimes its easier to give up that goal and choose another goal. The million dollar question is, "is your path predetermined or do you have a say so in it?". Not sure if I will never know that I answer but one thing I can say is thank you God for continuing to guide me in these uncharted waters. Thank you for keeping a light on at night for me to know that home is where the heart is and not where you lay your head. That love is eternal and some people just don't know how to love you...
All in all I am thankful. I am not depressed and I have much to be thankful and grateful for. As I take a deep breath, as I look into my beautiful daughters' eyes, as I look to the skies in amazement I know that I am truly blessed.

Lyrics

It's amazing how a song can be written over 30 years ago and the words remain true. Jack Jones "Wives and Lovers"....

I see you

Recently I went and seen the movie Avatar and was stricken by 1 main theme in the movie. Throughout the entire movie a term of endearment was "I see you". This is similar to love but I think it taped into a deeper level of love. Basically "I see you" means that I see your spirit or that I see your intentions.
Often times we can all reflect back when we were in love (hopefully God has blessed you to still be in love) and there might have been times when y'all weren't in tune. It was almost like you couldn't see that person. Like even though you were sitting right next to them they seemed light years away from you. Seeing someone is the way that God sees us. God sees us through the money, status, position, level, situation, discrepancy, illegitimacy, motive...etc and sees you for who you are.
Many of us (including me) have many different faces that we show to fit certain situations in life. I think the key is to "show yourself" to the person that means the most to you at all times. Allow that person to "see you". Become stronger in your vulnerability of exposing yourself to that person. Go beyond loving that person and truly see that person.
Allow yourself to say "I see you"..... God sees you....

Road Trip!!

Recently the divas and I took a road trip back to Kansas for the New Year's holiday. Initially I wasn't sure if I could do this trip by myself but God blessed us on the road back and forth. The girls were fairly good on the road. They tend to get antsy the last hour of the trip. I think the key is to travel during their normal nap time. This was the girl's 1st time experiencing single digit temps. (they enjoyed that...NOT!! ha ha). I thank all those who called me to keep me going and to entertain me the way there and back....

Giving thanks for resolution.....

Thanksgiving's theme is Thankfulness, Christmas's them is Giving, and New Year's theme is Resolution. When you add the holiday season's themes up you get, "Giving thanks for resolution". Whether you believe that these holidays were man made or divine creations you cannot deny the power of the holiday season. Somehow they transform otherwise cold hearted, selfish, or even mean people into these robots of love and compassion. They make the transition of the fall to winter bearable. They make relationships mend and flourish; which is why there are so many June-August birthdays. So let's break this holiday theme down shall we?

• Giving - the act of giving entails many avenues including: time, money, forgiveness, and love (just to name a few)


• Thankfulness - the act of being thankful means that you take the time to thank the person(s) in your life that make it worth living. Thanking God for allowing you to continue your journey to fulfill his purpose for your life.


• Resolution - resolutions are often used as scapegoats to mask the unchanging issues in our lives. We make unimaginable New Year's resolutions only because "everyone else does it". Truthfully resolution is a promise to make a change. Its an allegiance against the issue(s) in your life that you will no longer be a slave to and will overcome; at any cost. Many of us want resolution but don't want resolve (think about it and you'll get it).

Now that you know my take on the holiday theme what are you going to do about it? Repeat the theme as the clock strikes midnight for 2010. When you are repeating those words speak it in prayer and think of all the issues you have in your life, think of all the people that surround your life that have helped you through those issues, and lastly thank those people; for they are placed in your life by God!

Giving thanks for resolution.....

Friends

What up Tony?! Good friends are so hard to come by nowadays....haha