Chainging of the guards...

So i've heard this statement that people change every 10 years. Well as I approach my 34th birthday I can feel myself evolving; or needing to evolve. Sometimes I wonder if the person that I use to be is a better person than who I am today. I've always been taught to speak my feelings and make it easy for someone to read you. For a time in my life I changed that mindset and decided to be a high stakes poker face...haha. I wonder if I was a better person then? I wonder why most men arent forthcoming with the way they feel about situations? I wonder if im too forthcoming? Those are answers that I definitely dont have the answers to but am curious to find out about. I've always lived my life trying to make others around me comfortable. Or at least i'd like to think that I do. The past couple of years have been some enlightened years and they have really shown me who is willing and not willing to be here for me. I wonder if I was a millionaire would I have more people trying to comfort me in my time of need? Is it better to become a flat line of emotions or be this roller coaster ride of emotions? I think most people love to be around lively and energetic people but when that energy runs low who is really there to pick that person back up? A Gemini has been my excuse for my emotional trends. But is it something deeper? I find myself in public settings making a table full of people laugh but I wonder if I didnt open up would the table even talk? If I wanted someone else to make a joke would they? What if I wanted to be the laugher and not the joker? Would people question why i've changed? And honestly what's wrong with change? I tell you what's wrong with change....people dont like it. I think people get a feel for who your are and that becomes their comfort zone with dealing and enjoying you. If I were to change would anyone notice? Would it be a situation where everyone notices but no one says anything to me? And if I were to change would that be such a bad thing? I dont know....all I can do is put faith in God to lead me to change or stay the same. That is my decision and im sticking with it...